Thursday, March 21, 2013

Whatt?

Somehow I made it to 24lbs.

I'm not sure when.... but it happened. 

So, I'm taking it and continuing on this journey.  I don't care how long it takes me.  I've got this.

Tuesday, March 19, 2013

A catch Up

Ok, I suck at blogging.

Second, I suck at working out.

However, I'm still losing.  Somehow, I reached 21 lbs down.  Go figure.  I tried on a pair of pants today that have been way too small since they were bought and lets just say they were too big for me to wear now.  When did that happen?!

A good friend told me that it's ok if I lose weight slow, or at my own pace.  I am finding this is really the only way for me to do it.  I'm not dieting.  I'm not crash dieting or picking up any kind of work out with the words insanity or X in it.  Cuz those things would make me want to die.  That's just not realistic for me.  What is realistic for me is eating that piece of cake.  But instead of eating it once every couple of days, I eat it once a month.  I have a splurge.

It's realistic for me to up my protein and decrease my processed foods.  I have really been trying to eat more organic, more clean.  Apparently I love egg whites.  So I try to incorporate those in my diet when I can.  I'm drinking more hot tea, less coffee.  Mainly because coffee makes me want something sweet, like a scone, cookie, or pound cake to go with it.  Tea makes me want eggs.  Lol, it's all in the mind.

I remember attempting this journey a few years back.  I had some really close friends that were also going to blog and lose weight with me and try to get healthier.  I remember them pressuring me and telling me I wasn't losing weight fast enough.  I was ridiculed.  I felt so embarrassed.  Mainly because I trusted people I should not have trusted, especially with something so vulnerable.  We aren't friends any more and I haven't spoken to those girls since it all went down years ago, but it did leave an impression on me.  It's funny how God puts people in your lives to do that.  Right now I have the best group of friends I could ask for.  I'm supported, up lifted, and loved.  It makes me want to be a better person.  Isn't it funny how when you are surrounded by good, you want to be good?

Tuesday, March 5, 2013

Climbing back on

So, I kind of fell of the ladder.  The truck?  The bandwagon?  Ugh, what is it exactly you fall off of?

Anywho, I gained back like 4 lbs.  Which is pretty darn easy to do I've learned!!  So, take this as a bit of vulnerability mixed in with a bit of honesty and admittance, it is NOT easy to go on this journey.  It's not.  But I keep reminding myself that this isn't a race.  I keep reminding myself that I am not in competition with anyone.  And with that being said, I'm still happy with my progress and the lifestyle changes I have made.

So, this morning I got up and walked over a mile with Bella.  The cold felt good.  And the walk was nice.  It was the start to a day where I will make more healthy decisions and not give up.  No, I'm still going to conquer this.